Have you ever been in love in a way that changes you? A way that when you lost it, you knew nothing would ever be the same because you are now different?
Every September is the same. Every September I inevitably relive September 2007. I do all I can to hold on to every memory, every word, every sound, every thought, and every feeling. This will be the fourth September I’ve gone through these motions, however instead of getting easier it feels harder. Harder because I can’t remember as much. My memory is fading and it’s no longer fresh, and I’m not ready to let go but time is pulling you away from me.
Whenever I listen to “Someone like you” by Adele, I can never listen to it once. I listen to it multiple times and think of you. The lyrics speak volumes to pretty much anyone who has lost that important love. Her words are so honest and simple in explaining the longing that overcomes you when you miss someone. When you feel that they’ve moved on will you remain stuck. Why do we have to make heartbreak seem like it’s complicated? Believing that they’re better off without you, and wishing that somehow by them knowing that you’re not over it, it’ll change something in them, in their situation. Maybe in spite of their happy life, deep down they’ll realise they aren’t the same without you. They’ll realise it’s not over for them either. Or at the least they’ll realise that they’re also sadden by the fact that you aren’t together.
This line got me though: I wish nothing but the best for you
Do you really? Or is it more, I wish you the best, but the best is a life with me. I wish you to be with me so that we can be the best together. So that we can move forward together. Go back to where we were, return to being the great love we were. Just maybe you’ll realise I’m all you’ll ever need…
But that’s selfish and you feel guilty thinking it, but that’s what you want. You want them to want the same thing. You want them to want you the same way you want them. A part of you just wants them slowly inching across the border into desperate, helpless, unhealthy love. You want them to be where you are, to come find you and to bring you back to life. Part of you wants to be saved, lifted by them and brought to the same level.
But nevermind, it’ll never happen. Let’s cry it out and attempt to go back to reality.
Here is Adele’s video for Someone Like You, and just in case the video doesn’t work, here’s the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAc83CF8Ejk&ob=av2n
